Just Like Starting Over

"Why don't we take off alone
Take a trip somewhere far, far away
We'll be together all alone again
Like we used to in the early days
It'd be just like starting over..
Starting over"
~ John Lennon ~

Ralph Waldo Emerson once said: “What lies behind us and what lies before us, are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.” As I awoke this morning those thoughts were uppermost in my mind as I tried to fathom all the meanings of these mixed feelings of despair and delight, that nowadays have come to reside in the depths of my heart..

As I wistfully rang my thumb along my finger, light as a feather without my ring, it dawned on me that what lay behind me was not just my history, but the history of all women.. all their lives, all their loves and yes, all their loss. And with that dawning I knew that what lay before me was perhaps the most meaningful part of my life, of all women's lives and in that one perfect moment I realized that what lay within me is the strength and power to continue on with my quest, to renew and rediscover myself, to find new meanings, to live, to laugh, perhaps even to love again.

The power of a woman.

Yes, a peek of leg will always get taxis to stop for us, men still open doors for us and firefighters will rescue us first. We don't have to pay when we go on dates. We can go after what we want without being afraid to ask for help. We can say what we mean, without being mean when we say it. We can walk in the shoes of others, without losing direction. Best of all, we know how to solve most of our problems by simply eating a bit of chocolate.

But there's much more to us than that. Women have compassion like no other species and never tire of listening to problems. We have the courage to find solutions when others give up. We are resilient in the face of adversity and we are emotionally tuned-in and have the gift of expressing it. We can stand on our own, or be united to reach goals. Femininity is our personal power. Our strength lies within each of us. The world needs us. It needs us for more than just lovemaking or babymaking. Mother Earth needs us. She needs our courage to forge ahead, our intuition to discern, our passion for humanity and our wisdom to see the big picture.

This morning, as I awoke, I knew I had the strength to once more become the woman I've always been. Whole and true. Unique and beautiful. A woman with a never-ending romantic wanderlust toward sparkling stardusts of love and beauty. A woman whose dreams are nothing less than deeply sensed powerful emotions. A musical composer of morsels of words and thoughts.

Hence this morning I am once more a woman in love with love and life. Oh how wonderful it is to be once more at peace with myself! I find liking it very much. I find I like me.

It'll be just like starting over..

Luv 'ya,
Emily